Adult Life

Today I realized that moving into the apartment, cooking my own food, working a 9-5 job, scheduling and planning fun and other things of the sort all constitute what I perceive to be the entry into a new chapter of my life, an adult life.

Its probably because I was still adjusting that I didnt feel the changes until now. Like today, I woke up early, no if ands or buts, went to work and had to think on my toes and do well, came back to my apartment and cooked some things, and then tonight I have a social outing planned. Ya know at first I was hesitant about all of this. It seemed odd and rush into things, but in reality it is the perfect time to change the way my system operates, because first off its summer, so there is no academics that are eating and tearing away my flesh (except for the MCATs which I will buy my grave in advance for). Second off I realized that I wont be living in the same room as someone for a long time. It's a very liberating feeling having that kind of independence, and I didn't really appreciate it until now actually. Right now I'm comfortable here in my own domain where no one will bother me, well hopefully no one haha. I still have sutiemates but its not the same. I'm actually really excited about how this is going to change my day to day thing in the long run.

Today also I was reminded about how I operate when it comes to management. I like to take care of things the moment they arise and not procrastinate. Procrastination is something that has plagued my immediate friendship for so long now, ever since high school, and I just want to be one of those people who when they get a email or something just take care of it at the time, and NOT push it off till its like a week overdue. Then I'd be like who I was freshman year, and end up getting slapped with a nice bill. But yeah this change is healthy, and I'm not sure whether or not I want to but I'm thinking of finally doing it. I might at some point this summer jus make everyone I know start calling me by my full name, Fouad. Its gna be hard at times, especially at the beginning, even for me. But ya know it'll help me I think in the long run. There will still be places where i will be denoted as Fou, but I will try within means to limit them. I think that I need to start tapping into that potential of mine that I always look at, sigh, an go eat a chocolate bar or something haha. Being a successful person requires more than an attitude, it takes good hard work, something I havent been doing for a while. I hope that I will be able to prove to myself that I can take on the MCATs and do extremely well in them, thereby bettering my shots of getting into med school in the US. I'm getting my teeth pulled in a couple weeks, so thats exciting. Also I've been working on my weight. I accomplished something in the fact that I have so much chocolate in my room and I barely touch any of it....well that's a lie I do eat it but in moderation an sanity. If I were still in the dormitories that would have never happened and I would have eaten them all in a week haha.

All in all this summer should prove to be positive and an opportunity for me to work hard at getting the things done that I need to, and to hopefully have my schedule slowly fill up with something substantial related to my career goals so that I feel like I am accomplishing what I need to do to reach that beautiful MD...or DO we'll see. I hope that I can continue with this attitude as it is the only thing that will keep me from going back to Fou. See I have to go ahead and change that, as with all changes, there has to be a physical, social and thought component to it. Alright I'll formulate a gameplan on how to tackle that tonight.